Sleep, why don't I just go to sleep???

Why don't I just go to sleep? I'm tired as hell. My eyes are burning because they need sleep. I have no idea why I fight it so much. I just can't sleep unless i'm totally exhausted. I used to live in a place where you couldn't sleep at night. There was a bum that lived in the abandoned building next to us. I was afraid to sleep as the bum may get me. He would shout out random cuss words about how cold it was outside. I had to call the cops several times. I could be captain obvious here, but, I think he may have been insane.

I was advised to stop doing drugs, and start taking them.???

So my counselor tells me that I need to stop smoking marijuana and get evaluated for some prescription drugs. I just don't know about this substituting one drug for another. I have smoked since I was a kid. I know it works. How many pills with how many side effects do I have to go through to get what is needed? Is it possible to achieve serenity through pills? Shouldn't we be focusing on the real problems, not medicating as soon as possible? I just don't understand the "quick fix" solutions of therapists. If only it was that easy... Life just doesn't work like that. You can't just take a pill and make things better. If I have learned anything in my 30 years of life, it's that.

Strippers.......

Why do strippers have bad knees? I mean besides the obvious jokes. I have noticed that strippers, ring girls and girls that take off clothes for money have scars and scrapes on their knees. Don't believe me? Check it out next time you visit your local adult club. Is there some funky dance that requires you to be spinning on your knees , causing cuts? If anything they should worry about burns on the inside of their legs. You could cause quite a chaffing going down a pole upside down.

The worlds a freakshow....

So today i'm watching Jerry Springer. There are two transgender folk wanting the same man. Why that guy wanted either one is beyond me, but, i'm not him . The one kept letting his nipples be shown. The "dress" he had on kept falling down. They didn't blur it out. Why is a transgender nipple less obscene that a woman's? I would much rather my son/daughter see a woman's nipple than a guy dressed up as a woman that may or may not have female body parts. They give Janet Jackson seven layers of hell for a nipple shot and these freaks get to fight and show nipples, yes plural, with no reprocussions. Where is sweet lady justice?

Poker sucks....Why do I even play that dam game?

Dam poker sucks. I have won a lot of money and lost even more. There is no greater feeling than sitting for four hours and winning a entire tournament. You feel on top of the world. The problem is, you have to lose the hundred times before that. It takes so much for someone to win a tourny. The dam galaxy has to be alligned in just the presice mannor. I rarely lose to skill. Usually, I lose to luck. It drives me crazy. I'm a conservitive player who only plays hands which I'm winning from the flop. Somone beats me on the next two cards and it can drive ya insane.(I know all this poker talk, need a translator?) At any rate, i'm just bablling about poker bad beats. They suck and are part of the game, I just whine about it.

The love/ hate relationship I have for poker. Love it when I win, hate it when people are busting my chops!

Day after thanksgiving .......

So today it starts...the preperation for X mas. How I loathe it by the time it's all said and done. All the effort put into something that is just about getting stuff. Not that I am not guilty of the exact same thing. I love presents (hint). We bought my little girl a new bike. I'm going to have to teach her how to ride it without training wheels. This is the same girl that wouldn't pull her own loose tooth out becuse it hurt. The dam thing was dangling and I had to pull it. I am not looking forward to it.

On my way to the gym some jack ass lady pulled over to the side of the road and just parked. Why??? Don't you have a dam turn signal? If your just going to randomly pull over and turn off your car, at least signal. Don't expect me to read your mind. I can't do it and wouldn't want to. Besides, it would be hard to penitrate that mullet. Those are thick!!!!

Drivers.......why isn't drivers ed. mandatory???

So i'm on my way to the family Thanksgiving shindig. This guy flies up on my ass in the car. He can't get around because there is another car next to me. I am passsing the car, but obviously not fast enough. The guy gets right on my ass. Is that supposed to make me go faster? Oh your back there next to my bumper, ready to rear end me, so I should speed up. Fuck that. I slow down. If you get right on my bumper, be prepared to slow down. If he would have just backed off a bit, I would have sped up. I know how it is to be in a hurry and don't care to let him pass.

Why do the people that let off their breaks at a red light...you know the kind. Off the breaks , then on, then off and so on. When it finally turns green , these are the same people that don't take off for ten seconds. Your so anxious to go, but then you get occupied and by the time it turns green someone is ready to honk at you. If your in a hurry, pay attention and get your ass in gear when it turns green!!!

My head hurts...and it's my fault...i'm part of the %90 today.

My head hurts. I have smoked too much marijuana. Yes, there is a limit. I still have to go train for two hours. Oh well, what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger right? I should know better than to smoke all day. I had some stressors today and that is my excuse. Yes, I have a excuse....doesn't every addict? Why can't the pot effect come in a pill? Mild seditive with little to no side effects. I would be much happier. Maybe the Govenator in California will do some work and make it happen!!!!

My BJJ kids class....omg why do this to children?

This girl comes in today and wishes to try some Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. So what the hell. She is a young girl maybe 12 at the most. She weighs 208lbs. Can you belive that someone would let their child get that big at such a young age? If she doesn't do something and I mean soon, she will be obease when older. She is obease now let alone time for more eating and less exercise. I hope she comes back. I will be positive if it kills me. I would love to make a difference in someone's life. Maybe she was sent to me for guidence?? I hate parents that let their kids eat themselves to death.

A good weekend except for the crazy rednecks...like always.

So, I head to King of the Cage this weekend. It is in Belgatta casino in Indiana somewhere. It's like a needle in a haystack. The casino part was very fun as I won $700 on the slots. I wasted $300 on more gambling and then payed some small debts and took my family out for dinner.
The fights were so so as that goes. Mixed Martial Arts fights are a fickled bitch. Some are great or they just suck. Mis matches are common as no one knows if they are good or not. Three guys from out team fought and two out of three won.
During the fight wouldn't you know it.....I have to sit in front of the drunkest, stupidest, and loudest rednecks in the entire place. I'm used to the usual comments they make during fights. They don't understand and I can accept that. You can't just punch a guy that isn't letting you. Anyway, they were making the usual stupid ass comments. A black and a white guy come out and immediatly in hear the racial slurs. I can't take it. I mean god damn, I can't say i'm not guilty of stereotyping, but the redneck shit has to end someday. The idiots are shouting, "white power" as if they had any power or brains for that matter.
The black fighter gets knocked out and they are hootin' and a hollerin'. I wanted to just turn around and start beating ass. Problem is, we had just arrived at the casino and I wasn't about to let these asses get me kicked out. I got up and moved to the other side of the place. I hate racist idiots.